choke

I just saw the movie, Choke, & I enjoyed it.  Of course it's not as great as the book, but then again it's been a year or two since I last read Chuck Palaniuk's novel, so I don't know if its visual aid interpreted the content well within the novel.  I'm hoping to reread it again once I get it back from a friend who is currently borrowing it.

Speaking of books, I finally finished reading Twilight & am currently reading its sequel, New Moon.  It's too early to exactly say how I feel about Twilight, since it's probably best to finish reading the entire series, but I must say I do like it so far.  However, reading New Moon is somewhat of a relief for me.  It was exciting to read about Bella's experiences because (like everyone else) it was like going through the motions of our own first love experiences all over again.  It felt like nostalgia, which was good, but a bit horrible for me since I can somewhat still feel that pain of when our love ended.  I believe reading this sequel might be the turning point of my love life... maybe.

I'm contemplating about participating in the Look Alive Project & finally registering for the Susan G. Komen 5K marathon this week.  I need to stop procrastinating & start making a change in my life.  This may not be that much of a change, but if I want that something big to happen in my life then I have to do something.  Let's hope this all goes as planned.

Random Thought:

Books & movies aren't real, yet I always seem to relate myself to characters.  I do this so much that I sometimes believe I suffer from the same issues as they do & end up thinking I am them.  I need to stop thinking like this.

Music that inspired this blog:

Radiohead//In Rainbows

define me, oh define me!

I've received a lot of "sorries" today.  I feel I try too hard to make things happen.  I don't understand why it's always like this on unplanned weekends.  For once I'd like to be the one someone wants to hang out with.  Am I just overanalyzing things again?  I mean, I think I'm an unique enough person to spend time with.  I feel everyone else overlooks that.  I always wonder what my place is on Earth.  I feel I'm only interesting the first few days or weeks a person meets me, but then after that I'm nothing.  I sometimes think if I disappeared no one would even notice.

Everything happens for a reason.  Maybe, but what does this all mean?  When I go through these days where I hate myself & feel no one cares... what does it all mean?  I guess things will finally happen with all this wait, but fuck!  I'm tired of waiting.  Something needs to happen now!

rawr, i'm a allosaurus dinosaur!

I love Thao Nguyen, and seeing this video makes me wanna be cool like her:

Thao Nguyen & The Get Down Stay Down - Swimming Pools

Anyways, I want to be a dinosaur for Halloween.  I've contemplated this for some time now (ever since May) & I would be an Alysaurus -Rex (Allosaurus+T-Rex).  We'll see how it goes.  

I need to draw something, but I don't know what.  I've had impulses to create something, but I just don't know where to start.  Motivation needs to come to me now.

hello fall

Well, I'm a day late in greeting Autumn, but better late than never, right?  

Anyways, this past weekend I did some video work for my "internship" & it was a bit of what I expected, except the part where I drove all the way to Norfolk to pick up someone (the video guy's wife).  Crazy, right (more like I felt I was just being used for bitch work)?  I must say I felt a bit awkward, but yet comfortable enough to go through with it.  So, I waited a while for her to come, but as soon as I saw her walking toward my car I realized she wasn't what I expected (she was described to be as being fresh from the P.I.).  She looked unique & "artsy," & as soon as she stepped in my car I could feel this aura about her that made me believe she was... well, cool.  We had a conversation during the entire car ride.  I found out she moved from the Philippines not too long ago & that she's an artist.  She specializes in arts & crafts, but she does paint & draw & the whole nine yards.  She also mentioned how she wished she had some assistance to help in her art projects &, of course, I plugged in my services & she was more than ecstatic.  I told her how interested I was in making crafts & she insisted I take her old sewing machine to learn how to use one & put it to good use.  I really hope this all works out because I have plans of making little things here and there.  In gratitude of my pick-up service, Charmaine (the lovely artist I had the pleasure of meeting), gave me this Pear Softie:

Made with real Swavrorski crystals

These are other links of  her other Etsy site & an arts & crafts group based in the 757 area, respectively: seaspringlove.etsy.com & 7citiescrafters.com

Besides interning, later that night I attended a small art show down at the Oceanfront in support of my coworker, the fabulous Alex M.  I love his photography & I'm glad he lets me in on critiquing his photography every now and then during & after work.  I see him going places in the near future.

Random Thoughts:

I need to be creative again//I should get back into playing guitar//I need to organize/clean my room//There needs to be more hours during the day//I love water//I need to save my money better//Starbucks is my vice//I understand now...

Music that inspired this blog:

My American Heart//Hiding Inside The Horrible Weather

stacks on deck, patron on ice...

I can't sleep (those five hour naps sure can spoil a night's rest).

Surprisingly, my new year as a 23 year old has gotten off to a good start.  My weekend at Nags Head, NC was unbelievable.  It was definitely worth the experience.  I enjoyed meeting & hanging out with these interesting new faces:

Photo Credit:  Kat Ordonez

Thanks for a good time, Kat & Sheeryl!  I miss the weekend already.

I was watching some music videos on T.V. & really liked T-Pain's "Can't Believe It."  I thought it was entertaining & I just like the graphics used in it.  I hope I can create something like that one day.

So, I've been listening to a lot of Hip-Hop & R&B lately.  I guess I needed a break from listening to all that indie rock/electronic/dance/punk/alternative on my iPod.  I want something new to listen to.  

Ok, I think I'm going to close my eyes for a bit.  Until then...

Music that inspired this blog:

T.I.//Paper Trail

longboarding at night

I was bored (more like procrastinating on getting "intern" work done) after work & had an urge to take pictures while longboarding around at night.  I have a pretty good digital SLR (Canon Rebel XTi), & surprisingly I haven't used it in a while or at it's full potential.  I know, what a waste, right?  Well, I'm hoping to use it more since I somewhat have more time nowadays & since I feel I need to bring back my creative/artistic juices.  Here's a few pictures I've captured on my adventure longboarding around a golf course:

   

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ramble

I love old school music.  Especially old school R&B, but I can't stand how they're all about love & all that sappy shit.

I really want all of these in two days:

- Urban Outfitters gift card (or you can take a ponder at my Wish List online)
- Need Supply Co. gift card
- American Apparel gift card
- H&M gift card
- UNIQLO gift card
- iTunes gift card
- Barnes & Nobles gift card
- Starbucks gift card
- Kid Robot French Dunny series art toys or this
- Betsey Johnson perfume
- Burberry Summer perfume
- Watercolor paint set
- Canvas set
- Moleskin sketchbook
- Fine tip Black Sharpies
- 4GB Processor for my Macbook Pro

- Confetteria Raffaello candy (almond covered w/ coconut version of Ferrero Rocher)

sigh

The weekend is ending & although I do enjoy my time to relax & socialize with friends, I'm eager to go back to work.  Weekends aren't usually that special to me.  Most of the time I find myself at home while the rest of my family is out & about.  I mean this isn't that bad since I get to focus on me & have downtime, but sometimes I feel kind of alone & separate from whatever world it is I'm living.  I don't know.  I usually make the effort to do things with friends & I'm starting to get tired of it.  I wish the same was given to me in return.  And once again, this is the reason why I don't like the weekends... it makes me think too much & overanalyze things (especially when I'm alone). 

Anyways, I'm dreading for my birthday to come.  Why?  I don't know.  It's not so much the thought of turning a year older, but more of the thought that it will be my birthday.  I'm not sure if that makes any sense, but that's how I feel.  I don't really care that it will be my birthday.  That sounds so depressing, & a bit pessimistic, but it's just another day.  This may sound a bit contradicting too since I did plan to have dinner on my birthday, but I figured since this will be the first time in a while since I've had my birthday back home I should do something for it.

Random Thoughts:

I've been pretending & tricking myself to think things are ok, but I know they're not.  I want things to be ok, but it's hard trying.  I miss doing art & being more creative.  I've lost my motivation & don't know where to start.  I've been reading & it's got me thinking in a fantasy.  Music has been my outlet, & I don't know what'd I do without my iPod.  I think too much & I don't know how to stop.  I wish I could move on already...

Music that inspired this blog:

These songs were actually from my Random Mix playlist:

Thao Nguyen//Beat (Health, Life & Fire)

The Church//Under the Milky Way

Tegan & Sara//Walking With A Ghost

M83//We Own the Sky

The Cure//The Walk

My American Heart//All My Friends

Echo & The Bunnymen//The Killing Moon

The Shins//Caring is Creepy

Cut Copy//Nobody Lost, Nobody Found

Yeah Yeah Yeahs//Turn Into

Radiohead//Reckoner

Santogold//Shove It (Feat. Spank Rock)

New Order//Age Of Consent

electric feel

So, my birthday is coming up (Sept. 10) & even though I doubt anyone is really going to read this, or get me anything here's a list of what I'd like to receive (this list will also extend over til Christmas):

- Urban Outfitters gift card (or you can take a ponder at my Wish List online)

- Need Supply Co. gift card

- American Apparel gift card

- H&M gift card

- UNIQLO gift card

- iTunes gift card

- Barnes & Nobles gift card

- Starbucks gift card

- Kid Robot French Dunny series art toys

- Betsey Johnson perfume

- Burberry Summer perfume

- Watercolor paint set

- Canvas set

- Moleskin sketchbook

- Fine tip Black Sharpies

- 4GB Processor for my Macbook Pro

Thanks in advance!  =]

Music that inspired this blog:

electric feel (single)//mgmt